{Details for the pumpkin inspiration party can be found in my two previous posts.}
My Dad
spent a good portion of this summer filling out forms and
visiting doctors to determine the best course of action to
fight
his
cancer.
Well, I'm afraid that the
cancer
seems
to
be
winning.
Amazingly, my sweet, little mom seems to be mustering
up a great deal of strength to handle each day.
And my brother has been a godsend, truly.
I don't know what we would have done if he wasn't here.
I, on the other hand,
despite a deep and abiding faith,
feel as if I am on an emotional roller coaster
and find myself in tears at the drop of a hat.
We should know more
when the tests come back that determine
just how badly the cancer has spread.
The hospice nurse comes tomorrow.
Just a few short weeks ago
Dad looked like the picture of health.
Now he is just hanging on.
Mom said today,
"He is in God's hands."
There could be no place better, really.
I'll just miss him so much.
When I was just a little girl, my mom taught Sunday school.
I remember she had us memorize the Bible verse that says,
In my Father's house are many mansions:
if it were not so, I would have told you.
I go to prepare a place for you.
And if I go and prepare a place for you,
I will come again,
and receive you unto myself;
that where I am,
there ye may be also.
John 14: 2-3 KJV
I love the imagery
of
Jesus
coming
to
take
us
to
be
with
him.
In His time...
May my Dad find
Peace.
Rest.
Joy.
in the
arms
of
our
Saviour.
Oh, Mom, this is just so hard to read. I can only imagine how heart-wrenching this must be for you. I want you to know that I am here for you...if you are at school and in the middle of the day, you feel sad, or feel overwhelmed just call me. Promise me that you will call me no matter when...I love you.
ReplyDeleteI hate cancer!!!!!!!! I pray for your lovely father...what a hard time to go through...I understand your saddnes...May your Dad find the peace he needs! xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteSusan I'm so very sorry to hear this! My husband lost his father to cancer just 2 months ago and the pain of his loss is still so raw. In the end, what gave us the most peace, was knowing that he was going to a better place...one with no more pain or suffering...into the loving arms of the Father. Blessings to your family during this most difficult time...
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I miss my dad everyday but know that I will see him again, healthy and happy.
ReplyDeletePrayers are going up for you, mom, family and especially your Dad!
Cancer is a horrible illness. I just recently lost my aunt to cancer and then additional complications from chemo. It's so very, very difficult for the family and my prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteBefore we're born, God already knows when we're coming home to Him. Someday we will understand the Lord's plans, but for now we simply pray for acceptance. I pray that you father is not in pain physically. I pray that the Lord give you strength.
Keep posting. I think it can sometimes be very therapeutic.
Jan
Jan